Everytime i used to see my cousin on the cellphone, joking, laughing, expressing everything possible she could think of, i used to wonder, how alientating it gets...how we all want to be given some attention, loved a little bit...and then another cousin of mine got a cellphone, then another, then another........now all of us sit around...we get so excited seeing each other like we always used to...but we no more feel aliented...coz we all have cellphones, we all have free roaming, free text messaging....reduced calling, we have the freedom, which every slave desires...we have to the freedom to choose the limited...
we all sit around, we do share everything we want to, but not to each other, we have friends!!, we have friends of the real wolrd, the virtual world and the hyperreal world...anyone who's in our inbox, on our address book, our calling list, on our network.......is our friend...
then who are we????who are we????the exluded, the one who is not messaged, the one is who is not called........the one who is not scrapped, the one who is not blogged.......the one who sits accross you........the one dispriveleged to see your face, the one uninterested in what you say???...
how alone am i???....how alone am i, who wishes for a moment for myself, who has everything, real, virtual and hyperreal in front of me???...who has my sister sitting accross me, my friend over the phone and my email just accross my gaze...i cry for my space, i cry to be alone, i cry to be with myself.....
i have everything, the cellphone, the texting, the emailing, the networking........the movies, the music, the books, the games, the wordpad........i still crave for my space, i still feel feel alone......
sometimes i hate that i have so many people around..........and i know i will cry for all this one day, today when i cherish to be alone, there will be a day when it will pain........when i wil be all alone, all by myself, me myself and i.....we will dialogue, we will strike off an itellectual debate, we will argue, we will laugh..........but we wont be content...
we will search for those days when people filled the room...................
and when people fill the room (and technology), i want my space...i want to be alone.......
we all sit around, we do share everything we want to, but not to each other, we have friends!!, we have friends of the real wolrd, the virtual world and the hyperreal world...anyone who's in our inbox, on our address book, our calling list, on our network.......is our friend...
then who are we????who are we????the exluded, the one who is not messaged, the one is who is not called........the one who is not scrapped, the one who is not blogged.......the one who sits accross you........the one dispriveleged to see your face, the one uninterested in what you say???...
how alone am i???....how alone am i, who wishes for a moment for myself, who has everything, real, virtual and hyperreal in front of me???...who has my sister sitting accross me, my friend over the phone and my email just accross my gaze...i cry for my space, i cry to be alone, i cry to be with myself.....
i have everything, the cellphone, the texting, the emailing, the networking........the movies, the music, the books, the games, the wordpad........i still crave for my space, i still feel feel alone......
sometimes i hate that i have so many people around..........and i know i will cry for all this one day, today when i cherish to be alone, there will be a day when it will pain........when i wil be all alone, all by myself, me myself and i.....we will dialogue, we will strike off an itellectual debate, we will argue, we will laugh..........but we wont be content...
we will search for those days when people filled the room...................
and when people fill the room (and technology), i want my space...i want to be alone.......
No comments:
Post a Comment